Ive known most of my life that i am not the "same" as kids my age. Ive always had older friends, and different dreams/ life goals than other kids. I dont mind it. It actually makes me kinda proud. ^_^ Recently ive watched my brother struggle with finding a job, and with the fact that being an 'adult' isnt all it is cracked up to be. Kids my age want to grow up so bad that their childhood is wasted. Me, i never want to grow older. I despise my birthday. What is the joy and fun of growing older? If i could go join Peter pan in Never Never Land i would... Being an adult there is so much responsibility and stuff that needs done. Education, bills, feeding yourself, being able to get to and from a job, and a bucket load more. Do they not see all of this? I guess it is normal to want the good without the bad, the freedom with out the responsibility.
It is scary now looking at my brother running around filling out applications at every possable place and not have any luck yet. It is scary seeing his frustration, and struggles. I dont want that. I want to be a kid forever and travel, but i have no control over that. I can hate my birthdays all i want... Ill still grow a year older,although it dosnt necessarily mean ill change. I guess it isnt as bad as im making it seem. (oh no a dramatic teen) All that matters right now is that i will be able to achieve my goals. As long as im happy in the end im all good. ^__^
~ Done ranting for today :3
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