Growing up..

     Ive known most of my life that i am not the "same" as kids my age. Ive always had older friends, and different dreams/ life goals than other kids.  I dont mind it. It actually makes me kinda proud. ^_^ Recently ive watched my brother struggle with finding a job, and with the fact that being an 'adult' isnt all it is cracked up to be. Kids my age want to grow up so bad that their childhood is wasted. Me, i never want to grow older. I despise my birthday. What is the joy and fun of growing older? If i could go join Peter pan in Never Never Land i would... Being an adult there is so much responsibility and stuff that needs done. Education, bills, feeding yourself, being able to get to and from a job, and a bucket load more. Do they not see all of this? I guess it is normal to want the good without the bad, the freedom with out the responsibility. 
     It is scary now looking at my brother running around filling out applications at every possable place and not have any luck yet. It is scary seeing his frustration, and struggles. I dont want that. I want to be a kid forever and travel, but i have no control over that. I can hate my birthdays all i want... Ill still grow a year older,although it dosnt necessarily mean ill change. I guess it isnt as bad as im making it seem. (oh no a dramatic teen) All that matters right now is that i will be able to achieve my goals. As long as im happy in the end im all good. ^__^
~ Done ranting for today :3

New year New start

                  Well.... it has been about a year.. a-lot has happened since i last wrote. The year of 2012 flashed by in a blur. Even though if i think about it i haven't really changed. Im still a dramatic, crazy, fun loving, happy go lucky, accepting, teenager. ( And i hope that never changes XD ) The past year has been hard on the family financially. (along with most other families) Christmas was small, and sometimes it seemed hopeless that we would be "poor" forever. We are still having a difficult time, but when i think about it. We still have out beautiful 2 story, 3 bathroom, 4 bedroom house, a pool, and a large lawn. Our house might be what other kids my age dream of having. When i look at it from that perspective im spoiled! I get what i want, i dont share a bedroom (anymore), and half the time im not asked to do much. ( I do work for what i want and most of the time pay for it. )
                 
                  In the past year ive met all different kinds of people. Some are set on rebelling while others wouldn't dare step out of line. Some where quiet, shy, but others where intimidating, and scary at first. Ive learned that if you take a moment and get to know these people, they can become a good friend, or someone that you can rely on. Everyone has a story it is your choice if you want to listen to it or not. Alot of people always have there defenses up and making it appear that they dont want to reveal anything to anyone, but most of the time these people do want to talk. Once they open up you can see that they wanted somebody to come along and say hi. (im kinda the same way..... i suck at talking with people at first so i avoid it -_-' )


                  That concludes todays ramblings.... ill try to post more often this year...